Worthy is the Lamb Who was Slain

You learn a lot about yourself and your faith when you don't go to church for almost a month. You learn how much you need the love and encouragement of your brothers and sisters in Christ. But, you also learn who God is in your life. You realize that you don't need three songs and a sermon to get you into the throne room of God. That you can cry out to Him in your child's hospital room when you feel so, so alone and realize that you're not alone at all. And you never will be. Once you chose Jesus as your personal Lord and Saviour, you gained a friend for life.

You also realize how many people love and support you. To those who came, called, brought gifts for Hannah, Facebooked, or texted....thank you. And to the two precious women of God who called and prayed with me on the phone...God bless you. No words will EVER explain what that did for me. Our faith in God's healing power, and His ability to do that work, brought my daughter home. I am so grateful.

I am so ready to see more of what God can do. Even though this is a HUGE miracle in my life, to see Him quickly and mercifully heal my daughter-I know He can do so much more. His strength and glory and power in my life just barely scratch the surface of what He is capable of. So, I wonder....is that His fault or mine? Have I allowed God to be all-sufficient, all-powerful, all-encompassing in my life? The answer is yes and no. Sometimes I let God "do His thing", move and work on my behalf, and blow my mind. Other times I want to control it, I want to see the finished product before the work is done, I want to understand everything. Why? How? When? Where? What? I bombard God with these questions. Pastor preached a message about a month ago that really resonated with me, and it's still coming to mind in the midst of the battle now. He said, don't allow the enemy to bombard your mind with these questions, and when he tries, simply say this-"What's gonna happen? God's gonna take care of me, that's what!". My Facebook status this week said it best-All may not be perfect, but all is SO well! God has every last tiny detail of my life planned out. He knows when, where, why, how, and what. He only expects me to trust Him, and lean on Him when the battle seems too tough. He is worthy, and He always will be. No matter what my eyes may see, or my ears may hear. It doesn't matter that my heart trembles in fear at the uncertainty of such a time, as long as I go to Him to calm my fears and strengthen my faith.