Jesus, Take Me Away

I miss my friend Scott. Really, really badly. It's been 8 months since he passed, but as I watched a video of his family today, the grief covered me like a blanket. My heart aches for his family who is left behind, for the world that is lacking without his presence. For myself, and all of the reasons why his passing hurt me so badly. It doesn't help that I have been going through so many things lately. I love my job. I love my church. I love my family. I love my life. But, not having a job for so long has wreaked havoc on our finances, and we can't seem to get things back on track. At church, we have been given the responsibility of being the music minister, on top of everything else we do. That's not a problem-except the old saying goes-new level, new devil. That's the situation with that. He has even attacked my marriage lately, which really makes me mad!

All of this just makes me want to raise my arms up and say "Jesus, take me away!". My redemption, or something else really big, must be drawing nigh!! I am trusting in God to be in control of everything that is going on in my life. To know that he is charge of my past, present, and future. And that He knows what He is doing and will work all of this out for my good! It just really, really hurts.