Mono

Hannah has mono. She is sick, I mean really sick. I mean, falling asleep in the car on the way to the dr., throwing up in the waiting room, 103 degree fever sick. As I sat in the exam room with her, and they told me that it wasn't just a simple earache, and that they needed to do some tests, I broke. I sat in the chair with my sleeping, convulsing, terribly feverish 17 month old and wept. After that, I went into protective mommy mode. I gave her the Tylenol that the nurse brought in, held her for the doctor to do all of the obnoxious things they had to do to her, talked to her, sang to her. When all of that was done, I took her downstairs to the pharmacy and got all of her medication. I drove her home, put her to bed, washed the vomit laundry, cleaned all of her cups, cleaned and disinfected her stroller that was the target for her projectile vomit....yikes, and bleached all of her diaper bag toys. Also, called Daddy and told him to bring home a pizza because Mommy was not cooking. Hannah has never been sick, so I have never been to this place. My baby is sick, and I won't feel okay again until she does. My fuse is short, tears come easily, my heart breaks, and people REALLY get on my nerves! LOL Have ya been there?

I am so thankful, though. Thankful for the support of Hannah's Mimi and Nana. I mean, seriously? Dora popsicles? Grandmothers are the coolest! Thankful that my friends and family are praying for my little angel. Thankful that she is feeling better already, after the meds from fabulous Dr. Goodman. I love that man! Deciding on him as Hannah's pediatrician is one of the best things I have ever done. I am thankful that this will be a short-lived situation, and she will get better. This illness has offered me a small window into the lives of the mothers whose children don't get better, the illnesses that aren't shortlived, and having to feel the way I feel right now for a long time. Feeling so out-of-control, helpless, and upset. Those people are my heroes. I know several people who do that every day, but you, more often that not, will find them smiling through it. Amazing! Thank You, Lord for taking care of my daughter when I am unable to.