No Matter What

One of my favorite songs has a line that says "no matter what I still love You, and I'm gonna need You". I used to tell God that I needed Him. I need You to...x,y, and z. I need You for this hour, because I am going through something. But, as I prayed the other day, I realized one of the reasons that God allowed the season in my life that I have been through the last two years. I prayed to Him, and I didn't say I need You to do this and do that. I said, "I need You. That's it, I just need You." Sure there are things I need God to do, but more than anything I just need Him in my life. His breath, His presence, His love. If I don't have that, I really don't have anything. I have finally realized that He is truly ALL that I need. I am finally in a place where the only thing I am desperate for is His presence in my life. I know that no matter what comes, if I have God, I will be just fine. I trust and know that He is working in my life no matter what the circumstances might be. That's a giant leap for me, folks! Trust is a major issue in my life, just ask my poor hubby.

There are some things that I am waiting on, and people ask me how I am going to feel if those things don't happen. I am finally in a place in my life where I can say that if God doesn't give me what I am asking for, He has something better planned for me. It might not even be better according to my view of things, but it will be better according to His will for my life, and what He has purposed for me to do. My view of life is small, and many times it is very much about what I want. His view encompasses my whole life, and His will for me, and includes how I can help others. That is what my heart is seeking above my dreams, desires, comfort, and wants. When I take my last breath, I want to know that I made a difference in this world for His name and for His glory. That is how I am measuring success in my life, because I know that is what He saved me for.