There Is A God

Today has been one of those days. Actually, this has been one of those weeks. Not bad, just busy! Work (a couple of sub jobs this week), errand running, laundry, cleaning house, tutoring, church, taking care of Hannah, cleaning the church, working on the bulletin. And it's about to get even more busy. I got that maternity leave sub job at Sterling! I start on Monday. I will be there for four weeks, which qualifies me for long-term sub pay. I won't be tacky and a give a number...lol...but basically for four weeks, I will make 2 times what I have been making. This will be reflected in my May and June paychecks. Which means I WILL have a paycheck in June, which will give me time to look for a summer job! There is a God! Like I had any doubt before. ;)

The only thing is....my faith is rising up....wanting me to expect more than just this four week job. Then Satan sticks his ugly nose into it....and tells me I shouldn't get my hopes up. God didn't deliver the last time you got a long-term job....look at the economy....they are cutting jobs...this is a small town....you were terminated and told to come back in a couple of years, it's only been one year. You know what I hear him saying (?)...you're not worth it....you're not enough....you can't....they won't. I'm not hearing any more about it! I am going to trust God to perfect His will in my life. I am going to let my faith rise up and tell me that maybe this will be the time when God decides to answer my prayers and give me a full-time teaching job again. And if He doesn't, I am going to trust Him to know what He's doing in my life. I am going to remember that He sees the whole picture, and I only see a very small part of my journey. I am going to remind myself every day who is really in charge here.